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why   why do i like you why do i care closing my eyes i want to be there   sit by you stand by you thinking of you i do too   inside my head you make me smile on the outside its in denial   come to me walk to me stay by me can feel the tension in the air   (c)dawn   chillpills   chillpills is here to stay been a year of fun so far what more can i say the staff are great members too bringing all the fun for me and you thanks to you and the gang for making a forum hip hip horray laughters and tears we all have had sitting here and joining in theres more to come im sure of it waiting to see a poem from me to you just to say thankyou for making my day   (c)dawn   a poem i  wrote for a dear friend of mine,  her father passed away recently     sadness   in times of sadness remember the joys and not forgetting the laughter   inside you ache wanting to break on the outside all you want to do is wait   your loving father is in peace wanting you not to feel incomplete   to carry on you must do your father will look after you   you have your family that are by your side giving you comfort in this time   my love goes out to you thinking of you as much as i can   (c)dawn     inside,outside   inside, outside feeling you inside through to the outside feeling my love for you tears in my heart tearing me apart all because im feeling this way heads spinning around stepping through the clouds feeling for you seeing if your there searching for more more than what i can see looking for you but im unable to see where can you be able for me to find finding you is what im trying to do searching high high above the ground searching low low on the ground your miles away too many miles away loving you my hearts melting away   (c)dawn   loving you loving you with all my heart wanting to be with you and not apart dear  darling forever in my heart if i could be with you it would make my dreams come true heart is melting at this time wanting to be by your side look upon me loving your tendering touch touching me far away from me is all i see your eyes gazing at me sweet dreams between you and me loving you more and all can see (c)dawn To Sue your the first person i worked with the first person who helped helped me out when im stuck stuck what to do i'll come to you many years ago it was when we met hard to believe it was sixteen years ago still till this day i think of you a lot just like my mother i'll never forget we had a laugh back in the days when it was just me and you thankyou for being a friend a friend that i'll never forget always be in my heart and i love you to bits (C)Dawn   nearly here the time is nearly here ready to go ready to play up up and away   shaking of the thought of going on a plane what to think what to say   four hours it will be what will i do just think and pray   listen to music is what i'll do keeping my mind high off the ground   will i eat or will i drink who knows what to think   enjoy  the flight i hope i do sitting with my mum and dad seeing the world fly away (c)dawn   16 years 16 years ago i left school where as it gone time goes so quick   i was 16 then im 32 now half my life whisked away   hard to believe how long ago that was its so unreal   been in 2 jobs in all that time how to believe ive not always enjoyed my time   life as had its ups and downs crying with laughter or for just being down   sitting here now i think to myself the world wouldnt be the same without me in it   ive had it hard \we had it good made some great mates so many that i love   a few have hurt me in that time time as moved on and all in good time (c)dawn once again   once again you have done it shown me what your really like   your doing my head in all the time just be nice to me if you really can   you lie to me all the time dont lie to me just be kind   i really thought something of you day after day im losing my faith in you   (c)dawn   from the day from the day we met i like you more than liked you i fancied you your so caring and kind lovable and sweet falling for you big time wanting to be with you it breaks my heart not being with you wanting to meet you been a while since i've felt this way wanting you to hold me what can i say loving you with all my heart looking at your face skips my heatbeat hold me in your arms showing your love for me not breaking my heart its not how i want to be (c)dawn                                                                          in my in my head in my heart wanting to be with you all the time   need to break away its hurting me inside loving you it's breaking me a part   never be with you its not meant to be loving you why do i?   love your looks love your smile so caring deep inside   my love for you i wish it would go away its hurting me inside   why did you meet her wish it was me wanting to be with you would make me happy   loving you with all my heart not seeing you is tearing me apart   wrote this for you today just to say loving you with all my heart   (c)dawn         mean the world   you mean the world to me always in my heart right from the bottom to the top of my heart   hear me now don't you see im in love with you and it's killing me   each time you let me down why do i bother thinking of you it's because i love you   (c)dawn   think what to think what to do thinking what if do you care really believe wanting to believe is it right is it wrong tell me the truth i thought you cared cared about me hating this way give it a rest its mucking with my head and its all to much (c)dawn   wrong think you wrong i know its wrong how can you do it do it to your life hurting people as you go i feel used because of you its sick what you do can't get my head around it all all knowing its not right i felt the same still do all the time miss you like crazy i'll get over you (c)dawn   treat me treat me like a adult not like a child had enough way to much how long can i take it i really don't know leave me alone and not have a go wanting to shout i know i cant but i want to its getting to much im 32 not 12 thats how it seams you treat me like **** and im not kean (c)dawn     life life is for living so is believing whats right and whats wrong today is today tomorrow is another day bringing it right is for today (c)dawn   you told me you told me you liked me flirted for months then it stopped why did you do it you knew how much i liked you that way i started to have feelings for you now im crushed don't know if i can trust you again will it happen again (c)dawn     do you do you want to meet me do you really care makes me think do you really care i believe it wont happen never in this day hoping it will but i bet it wont im lied to all the time never know what to believe will it ever happen who knows (c)dawn   how long how long can i wait wait till i know whats going on is it this simple just to know only a few more days waiting to see how ive got on hope its not to late its what ive wanted to move from here making me unhappy when im here hoping its good news dont know what to expect up here in my head (c)dawn     laura from london lives in london to far from here wanting to meet you because i care one day we will its hard not to see you just thinking of you makes me love you your one of the best the best to have hoping to meet you going to be the best your name is laura who is just like me mad as a hatter lovable as we can be (c)dawn    time say one thing do another what is the point of coming over   time after time its all the same getting out of doing it again   you want me to trust you prove it to me show me you care not lie to me   i think a lot of you but time after time its getting to much to much not to believe   i care about you i thought you did of me too let me be wrong come and visit me   arranged to take me away i don't know what to say stop changing your mind and think of me   i would like to see you juat let it happen just for once you and me   i fancy you like hell dont you see wishing it was you and me   your my mate don't you see but i also like you in my dreams   my dreams are to be with you hoping one day it will happen too   you make me happy you make me smile and its all because im thinking of you   this is all in my dreams knowing it will never begin time will tell and one day it will end   (c)dawn

think of you every day  your smile brightens up my day  wishing you were by my side    loving you in every way  im here for you all the time  wanting to be with you at this moment in time   i love you more than words can say  wishing you felt the same all the others have been second best    knowing your always be my number one from day one  ive loved you more never forgot you when we were apart   hurts me more when your with someone else wishing it was me and you wish is all i can do lying here and thinking of you       A ode to Gill (my aunt)   It’s not time To say goodbye Its time For a new beginning Forever in our hearts You will not be forgotten Remembering The times that we shared Our love for you Will always shine every second, every hour will always be there gill was our gift a gift from above for us all to share and to adore   (c)dawn           spring spring time should be upon us instead its snow and hail march and april should be warm and bright not dull and wet baby lambs in the fields running wild leaves on the trees flowers in the field and all looking green friends and friendship friends are the world the world to me always being there in times of need   my best mates are there for me through good times and the not wantng to be   friendships come and go the lasting ones are simply the best and dont go   claire,ammo, kathy and co are my best friends for the world to see (c)dawn     confused confused inside is what i am feelings are strange too much to bare what am i thinking is it right should i be feeling this way inside see things different from my heart look upon me i don't know where i am is it right is it wrong feelings inside tell me it's strong (c)dawn secrets secrets are secrets the way they should be deep in the heart and not in the open secret is with me and rach keeping me going keeping me straight thanks for being a mate it's what to think that i don't understand its the answer to ask that i demand (c)dawn living life is for living so is believing whats right and whats wrong today is today tomorrow is another day bringing it right is for today (c)dawn i wrote this for one of my mates, shes a massive fan on a guy called leland leland his name is leland how can you forget laura's mad for him oh what the heck she loves his looks loves his smile wanting to be with him would make her smile he's on tv the air is smitten and for all the love of a guy called leland (c)dawn   wonder why wonder why it didn't happen what did i do wrong thought you cared   to me it was a lie one that i can not forgot you hurt me more by not telling me so   man what did i see in you im annoyed hows its gone wanting to forget you i wonder why (c)dawn   2002 in 2002 i met you made me happy again every day and every night   forgot about the hurt that was hurting remembered i was loved i believed in that too   after so long it fell apart tore me apart deep in the heart   you hurt me like hell by how you treated me still to this day it hurts inside   watched you grow older and me more wiser still till this day i'll never forget you   deep in my heart i love you pain in my heart i still love you   wish things were different thungs have moved on but one thing for sure i'll always love you (c)dawn   hate life hate life detest the world hating how i feel get me out of here   take me away right away from here knowing you i hate it in everyway   wanting to be loved not being alone unhappy to say im hating this way happy i want to be being happy i need to be life is not great hate the way i am   wanting to change the best way i can don't know how to do it one day i know i can   some people make me happy some make me sad not knowing what to think it's making me mad (c)dawn   minute minute by minute hours go by wondering what will happen as time goes by   lookig over my shoulder i hate what i see to many bad memories all from me   they say remember the good times but its not that easy remembering them hurts too much inside (c)dawn   face i see his face and his smile knowing what we had weeps inside   today i still love you tomorrow will be another hoping inside wish you were mine   could it happen i really don't know loving me i hope so (c)dawn   used used me abused me what have you done to me   hurt me inside you don't know how much i wish you did but i doubt it very much   loved you too much not to care what you are doing is not being caring (c)dawn got to be got to be witty got top be quick slow is not the way to be   move a bit faster put feer into gear we are not doing it all   be fair to us is all i ask before i start to harrass (c)dawn   out out you go out to play don't shy away go and play   it's great to play with your friends enjoy your life before it ends